Sleep Deprived Hallucinations - Two

Today, I awoke at 6am and slowly reached for the loaded revolver under my pillow (because who doesn't sleep with a gun in their bed?) On second thought.....won't kill myself today. Ugh, there is so much to be done! Now, please don't mistake all this rambling as a sign of negativity. On the contrary, I assure you, I am an extremely optimistic person. I radiate sunlight, I swear by it.